Day 270 – Weight Update

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I stepped on the scale on Tuesday the 24th, and I weighed 292. Good lord, why do I keep typing 292?! That's 192!

Then I stepped on the scale on Monday or was it Tuesday morning? I think it was Tuesday morning. I weighed 188.6.

My official “step on the scale” day is the 1st of each month, so I stepped on the scale this morning. Now I weigh 187.4.

My “official” weight loss: 44.6 pounds

Hmmm… I've been eating normally. In fact, on the last two days of vacation, I ate as much as I could to try to eat up the food we'd bought and would have to leave behind. I would have thought for the amount of beef jerky and dried fruit and nuts that I ate, that I would have gained. Although I did do a lot of walking.

Tonight for dinner I had Stuffed Bell Peppers. Tomorrow I'll share the recipe with you.

I'm still tired from our vacation. I guess it's normal to feel this way.

I've been trying to read Good Calories, Bad Calories: Fats, Carbs, and the Controversial Science of Diet and Health by Gary Taubes but an acquaintance has informed me that the book is complete nonsense. I don't know. It seems to make some sense. Perhaps I'm allowing the wool to be pulled over my eyes. It does seem that some kinds of calories affect us differently so that we are more hungry and want to eat more.

My mom and I were talking this afternoon,  I don't remember exactly what was said and my mom said that it was my choice to do GAPS and to limit the foods I'm eating. That I could eat anything I want to eat, but I choose not to.

I told her it doesn't really feel that way. I guess it is my choice.

But it seems like I cannot eat anything I want. The price is pretty high for eating whatever I want. I did that for fifteen years and gained over 100 pounds.

I can't eat dairy or my sinuses become swollen and I can't breathe through my nose to sleep at night. If I eat carbohydrates I gorge like a starving dog and can't stop myself from eating which causes me to gain weight. It's uncomfortable being as big as I was. I just don't feel like I can eat anything I want.

I guess it helps my mom to not feel deprived when she tells herself she can eat anything she desires. Although she also cannot. She has eaten low carb and low fat for many, many years. Possibly for two decades.

I just feel like I'm lying to myself if I tell myself I can eat anything I want, but I just choose not to. What do you think? Do you tell yourself you can eat anything you want, but you just choose not to?

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6 thoughts on “Day 270 – Weight Update

  1. I don’t think we can eat “anything” we want and remain healthy. Look at the stats for obesity, type 2 diabetes, and other diseases in North America over the last 20 years and you can get a good picture of what “eating whatever we want” has done for us. So much of the food available isn’t really food anymore.

    Congrats on the weight loss. You are giving your body what it needs and it’s thanking you 🙂

  2. Hi Kellycat, amen. That’s so very true. And my mom would never consider eating certain foods so I don’t get why she tells herself she can if she wants. Oh well. I’m glad it works for her. Thank you! I am still trying to not make this about losing weight, but it sure does feel good when the scale continues to drop. Slowly is just fine, too!

  3. I have lost 40 lbs too, since starting GAPS one year ago. Prior to GAPS I ate whatever I wanted and was absolutely miserable, tired, overweight, and making my body sick. Now that I eat “healthy” I feel amazing, have endless energy, no allergies, gray hair is fading, no PMS, feel healthy and happy. No money or food in the world would make me want to go back to the way I felt before. I’m sure many of my friends and family think I’m crazy for denying myself “regular” food, but I don’t feel like I am denying myself anything. I am allowing myself to be healthy and live a longer and more productive (higher quality) life.

  4. Eileen, congratulations on your weight loss. Forty seems to be a number that many folks coming to GAPS lose. I can totally relate to eating whenever and whatever, it made me miserable too. I don’t have endless energy yet, but I know I feel 100% better than I did nine months ago! I know people at my job thinking I’m nuts to deny myself regular food, lol. It’s not good for us!! I used to think who cares if I’m overweight. Well, you hit the nail on the head. It’s about the QUALITY of life. Is eating junk worth being miserable all the time? I’m with you. Absolutely not. I don’t ever see myself going to bad to eating how I used to. I can’t. I can’t bear to live like that ever again. And on these random, every so often bad days, I’m reminded of how icky my life used to be. Thank you for visiting, Eileen and I have really enjoyed your comments! Have a great day!

  5. This is a part of making positive changes that is very important to me. When I tell myself that I can’t have something it sets up a negative mental state of deprivation (even if its not something I particularly care for). I find it very empowering to realize that I CAN eat anything and to choose to eat the foods that help me feel good. It’s all about how I frame my thoughts.

    Pretty much the only subject that comes close to my fascination with nutrition and the human body is psychology. Our minds and subconscious are so powerful! 🙂

  6. @Erin, yes that is so true. I just wish it were easier to get things out of our heads that are ingrained since childhood! It seems the vows I made as a child I kept, and some of them I can’t seem to change the patterns. I can only keep trying, I guess. Thank you for taking the time to comment and let me know your thoughts. 🙂 Best, Starlene

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