So today I worked from home and I felt tired and was having a hard time concentrating.
Finally, I just had to have something, so I decided to act on a whim and make myself a smoothie.
I used some ingredients that are not GAPS legal. Here is a link to what I made. The coconut milk [affiliate link] was canned, and contained illegal ingredient guar gum (which causes me to have phlegm in my throat), and I used cocoa powder, which is also not GAPS legal although it does not seem to have any adverse effects on me.
I started out with almost one cup of coconut milk which would have increased the calories significantly as that is what I felt worst about the cheating, was the additional calories which I would not have had if I'd not made the smoothie. I ended up measuring out 1/2 cup and saving the other 1/2 cup.
I also felt some distress that I have been off fruit for over a month, and here I was eating a banana.
For the record, the small treat I made for myself contained 467 calories. That seems like a very large amount of calories. Although I am not counting calories, when I first started GAPS I was having a lot more “treats” and I think that may have caused me to keep weight on initially.
I seem to be deeply immersed in “diet head” today.
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I was talking to my mom about it, and she said, “I know you'll go back to it [eating GAPS], it's helped you too much.”
When she said that, I realized that I hadn't gone off GAPS at all. I had in fact, not embarked on a diet-induced binging frenzy.
I know that is a common thing for people to do when dieting, to “fall off the wagon” and then go nuts for the rest of the day, eating anything and everything. I myself have experienced this guilt in the past when I was on a low fat diet. I would feel horrible, and think, “May as well party for the rest of the day and start over tomorrow.”
But I didn't do that. I just had my little treat and that was that.
I actually felt satisfied and was able to concentrate much better and focus on what I was doing, and didn't feel hungry for several hours.
I'm not sure what happened. I mean, I don't think I'm nutritionally deficient, although bananas do contain potassium and I did just read recently from Fiber Menace that low carbohydrate diets tend to be low in potassium. But, now don't quote me, I think he said to drink cucumber juice (juiced from fresh cucumbers). He didn't say make a cocoa banana smoothie. 😉
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Remember I mentioned putting kefir in my bath last night? Well, I did it. I actually had two cups of raw goat's milk leftover from yesterday, and I put the two cups (or so) of kefir in that milk for the day. Then in the evening, I added the quart to lukewarm bathwater. It actually made some bubbles in the water, and was nice to be in. I really liked it. I soaked for a while and it seems like my skin felt very smooth and silky afterward.
I didn't want to take a hot bath, because I figured the bacteria in the kefir would be killed if it was too hot.
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The Fiber Menace guy says it is hard to digest protein and we should only eat protein once a day, in the evening. So I kind of got that in my head and I've been eating vegetables for breakfast and lunch for the past couple of weekends.
Tonight I made hamburger burros for my husband, and I had some of the hamburger with cooked bell peppers and squash. It was fairly tasty and I have enough for lunch tomorrow.
Yesterday I ate two huge artichokes all my myself. According to Fiber Menace, if you have gas it is because of fiber fermenting. I had gas throughout the night (not painful or anything) so that makes me think artichokes are higher in fiber than the foods I have been eating.
Jumbled thoughts tonight. I'm feeling tired. I wish I could have taken a nap today. I am really loving seeing my bed made instead of just being a jumbled mess of covers (I wonder how long this phase will last). But I will get to bed soon so that should help me tolerate tomorrow.
My cheat wasn't too terrible, but it was deliberate and I enjoyed it. I hope this isn't a sign of things to come. I don't think it will be. But I have already decided that I'm making an almond flour [affiliate link] chocolate cake for my husband on Father's Day.
I can't wait for my new bedding to arrive.
Sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite. 🙂