Day 189 – Rough Day

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Today has been a rough day.

After I wrote yesterday about feeling poorly, I realized a couple of things. First, I went swimming last Saturday in a chlorinated swimming pool. I have heard this can be a toxin. At my dentist appointment, which I still cannot remember if that was Tuesday or Wednesday, I had two x-rays. Maybe those are a toxin for my body to have to work at removing. I did a little bit of research on the ‘net but who knows what to believe.

The dentist's receptionist told me the tests for mercury (with regard to amalgams) were basically all skewed and no one would ever be exposed to that much mercury and she said the dentist works with amalgams all the time and he's fine.

Well, that's good to know.

Then work was stressful this week.

I guess there is a part of me that thinks all my hard work on GAPS is for naught. On the other hand, I know it's normal to have ups and downs. We can't be happy and handle stress perfectly all the time, every minute of the day.

I spent most of the day in bed. I also took a detox bath with Epsom salts, I haven't had a detox bath in weeks and weeks.

I got literally nothing done this weekend so far. I have so much to do that it's not even funny. I'm getting behind in my husband's accounting for his business and also with tracking our own personal finances.

My mom got stung by a scorpion twice in one week and the second sting was much more difficult for her body to shake off. I guess her feet were numb for a couple of days, and her hands were tingling. She spent a lot of time on the phone with poison control. That probably stressed me out.

That's the thing. I don't think that I'm really aware of how many things are stressing me out. For one thing, I just take it in stride that I have a child with Down Syndrome, but it's probably a big stressor. I mean, normally your 23 year old is out on his or her own by that age, or at least you don't have to worry about persuading her or him to take a shower and change clothes, you know?

I guess I am going to crawl into bed again.

There was also a website posted on the list today and GAPS was kind of being trashed. That was quite upsetting.

For many years, I wouldn't diet mostly because diets don't work. So there is a part of me that feels that I've been elaborately hoaxed by GAPS. That it's not really going to work out for me in the end and worst of all I'll gain back all the weight and more.

The thing is, since I've been studying Fiber Menace so much lately, I now have more information to persuade myself to stick with GAPS. Mr. Monastyrsky explains a lot on his website and also in his book, and he advocates a low fiber diet, which is what GAPS is.

Anyway. I'm tired. I'm going through a confusing time right now with GAPS. The most part of me is still convinced it is a good thing. After all, if I get nothing more than my feet not hurting and my back not stiffening up at night, that is better than nothing. Those two things are very important and have made a world of difference for me.

I am sure I will feel better tomorrow.

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4 thoughts on “Day 189 – Rough Day

  1. BIG HUGS. Keep your chin up hun! We all have bad days. I am really really sorry you are going through a hard time. Lots of love to you!


  2. Aw, so sorry you are having such a rough time! Sounds like you are going through some detox to me. I had a day like this yesterday and the day before with tears and fights with mum and all- very emotional.
    I just want to assure you that there is LOTS of evidence that GAPS is a wonderful diet and all your hard work is NOT in vain. Just think of the blog you did last week with all of your improvements thus far! Or if you need scientific proof- that article that came out last week about some doctors finally recognizing the role that gut health plays in autistic children. I know it gets hard when the healing seems so slow going, but you ARE making progress. It takes time to undo years of damage to our body, ya know? I think the great thing though is that the scales are tipped in our favor because I believe that when we start feeding out body the food it NEEDS, it will cooperate much quicker than it takes to deteriorate from abuse.
    So hang in there and I say go with the flow and be extra NICE to yourself. Just do the minimum you NEED to do right now and don’t beat yourself up about it. Doing GAPS is CHALLENGING, no question about it. I know this can be hard when things feel like they’re piling up- I’ve felt this way for weeks now, but you WILL get through it and be better for it.



  3. Tara Marie, thanks for the encouragement, and for the affirmation that GAPS is a wonderful diet!

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