Ohhhhhh… the weekend went by so quickly. I got a lot done though! I am accustomed to pacing myself over the past few years, because I know I will only have energy for so long and then it's over. So there's no point in wiping myself out when I can only do so much.

I caught a few minutes of a cleaning show on satellite television today – How Clean Is Your House? I saw houses that were actually dirtier than mine! Amazing. Mine's pretty cluttery and dirty, but not that bad. Yeesh! The one I saw today was a young couple that had three young rescue dogs and something like 8 chinchillas. I don't know if the dogs were housebroken… and the house seemed to be covered in brown grime. I wonder if they are smokers?

Anyway, my point in bringing this show up is… what was my point? OH, yes, my point. They brought in a team of at least ten people to clean this young couple's home. I knew that was why it takes me forever to get our home cleaned up.

See, I have no energy so I can't do much of anything. My husband washes dishes, and my youngest son will wash dishes, too. But neither one of them pays any notice to the stove caking up with food and grime, and the floor, I don't know if they've ever swept or vaccuumed. Okay, maybe two or three times each?

And none of us care all that much and we live way out in the boonies so no one ever comes over to visit. But heaven help us when someone does want to come visit. It's a nightmare. I once had a family come by to visit, they told me like the day before, “Oh, we'd like to come meet the goats and see where the milk comes from” and I was like, “Make sure you use the bathroom before you get here, you really can't come in the house.” And they didn't listen to me, and I couldn't let them come in.

OH dear. I never started this to be a true confessions about my messy house.

The other thing I was rambling about is I get these spurts of energy, just long enough to make a tiny dent. Then throughout the week, the house gets messy again. And on the weekend, I have no energy. So the little dent I made becomes unrecognizable.

I am hoping that this weekend was not my typical “burst of energy” I hope it is the start of a new existence for me, one where I actually have energy and can get the house cleaned up and do all the things I need and want to get done!

I was also feeling a bit down today. I guess I got my hopes up a bit too much that I will lose weight being on full GAPS. My pants felt really tight on Friday night when my hubby and I went out to do a bit of shopping. They are the ones I've been wearing to work and they were just uncomfortably tight. So that can only mean one thing. I'm gaining weight again. Or maybe not.

I have to keep reminding myself this is about my health, not about losing weight. Although losing weight and getting to a normal size would certainly be the icing on the GAPS cake for me.

And now it's after 8pm and I have to get up at 4am tomorrow morning, so as much as I'd like to drone on some more, I had better stop for now. I never did get back to Day 56 – Evening. That's something else, since I'm on GAPS, suddenly I'm on cooking detail all the time. Okay, that's a slight exaggeration. I guess it just seems like I'm cooking 5 or more nights each week, and I used to only have to cook 2-3 nights. It takes a lot of time to prepare meals.

Night.